Mixed Feelings

Visiting Dave made me SO glad I don't live out there!

I would be bored out of my mind!

And I hardly got to see him.

Plus, I missed my friends and family,

and REALLY missed the dogs!

However, now that I'm back, I miss Dave! So much!

I'd love to be bored and stay in bed all day!

I want to see him!

Even if it's only for an hour a day!

Again, I know that's not really what I want.

I'd lose my mind.

I need to keep busy.

Not to mention I don't want to quit my job

just to have to find a new one in the fall.

Yep, mixed feelings about sums it up.

I'm going to try to have a good attitude

about the position I'm in,

because that's the only way to be happy

in such a complicated situation.

Wish me luck!

T minus 26 days and counting

until I see Dave again!!

Counting The Days...

...until I get to see Dave!!

And it's just 3 days now!

On Wednesday night I fly out of SLC

and arrive in IN around noon.

It's going to be a short trip,

but better than no trip!

I fly out on Sunday afternoon

and get back late on Sunday.

I seriously cannot wait!!

Maybe seeing where he's living

and how much he's working

will make me grateful I'm

NOT out there with him

:)

Pouty Face...

I have no patience today, I'm ornery as can be, and I'm bluer than blue.

I know all the reasons I stayed here in Logan while Dave is gone, but it's still hard. I just want to go be with him.

I tried to keep to myself as much as possible at work today to try to avoid losing my job for biting someone's head off. I've been successful so far.

Maybe I just need a nap. And some ibuprofen.

P.S. Later in the afternoon on this day, Dave sent me flowers!! So sweet!

Dilemma

Dave moves to Michigan in 2.5 weeks.

I was planning on staying in Logan because I love my job

(aaaand I went crazy last summer with nothing to do).

But...

Last week I was moved from my fantastic admin job

to be the receptionist.

And I hate it.

HATE. IT.

And if you know me at all,

you know I have a hard time hiding my true feelings.

So I've been openly

mad

ornery

sad

bitter

hurt

and just all-together unpleasant about it.

While complaining to a co-worker, a girl came in for an interview.

She overheard some of my ramblings and, after the co-worker left,

said very quietly and sweetly,

"At least you don't work at Arby's."

She does.

Brick to the forehead.

I may not have my dream job,

but they didn't dock my pay when they made me the receptionist,

they still treat me like a part of the executive staff,

and I get free lunch every Tuesday.

And I don't work at Arby's.

Bright side acknowledged.

It's still hart to be saying goodbye to Dave,

but I really was so lonely and unhappy last summer.

This summer:

I'll be living with a girlfriend whose husband will also be gone,

I'll be able to spend lots of time with my family,

and hopefully take a couple of amazing trips

(Brazil?? Please Dave?? Vanessa, come with me!!)!

So I'm trying to be more pleasant at work.

I'm grateful to have a job when so many don't.

Even if it means being the receptionist

when I am capable of so much more.

I'll just have to be the best damn receptionist around!!

P.S. My apologies for the language.

Since losing my admin job,

I've been throwing a lot of damn's and hell's around... :)

I Think I Need To Have Kids

I never have anything to blog about, or to scrapbook about... so I either need kids or more money. Because if I traveled a lot I'd have stuff to blog and scrapbook about.

xoxo

Life is So Fragile.

A friend from work was killed in a car accident on Saturday morning.

He passed out at the wheel

(not sure what happened, but I guess he had some sort of medical history...)

and was thrown from his car.

Please wear your seat belts!!

He was 20 years old, with a wife and 2 kids-- the younger is 5 months old.

He and his wife were married in the temple.

article here

Having this happen on the heels of almost losing my husband

has made it very clear to me just how fragile life is.

I'm so grateful for my family and friends (that means YOU!).

Sorry to be a downer.

On a lighter note...

Happy Valentine's day!

And happy 2nd anniversary to my honey.

xoxo

Adding Insult to Injury...

Or vice versa I guess...

When Dave had finally made it back to Logan, he went to return the snowmobiles to his friend. They are kept in an enclosed trailer, so Dave just had to ride them in. There was a lip at the entrance to the trailer, so he had to get some speed to get over it. Well, he was paying attention to the floor and not the ceiling... so he hit his head HARD on the opening to the trailer.

So now he has a lovely gash on the top of his head that was gushing blood. Thank goodness it doesn't need stitches because it wasn't a cut coming straight down-- more like a scalping :) I know, lovely right?

My poor Dave needs a vacation. And so do I. :)

FEAR.

Early yesterday morning, while I was getting ready for work, Dave was preparing to go on a snowmobiling day trip. He was so excited, he almost left without kissing me good bye. After a sweet kiss, I told him to be sure those lips came home safe and sound. He promised.

On my way to work, I was thinking about our relationship: our 2.5 years of dating and (almost) 2 years of marriage. I thought about all the issues we had to get thru before we could get married -- i.e. Dave had to stop being afraid of me :) I called him just to tell him I was so glad we were married and happy and I'm sorry I take him for granted. He agreed and said he loved me too. i didn't want to hang up, but I knew he was anxious to get going, so I said bye and told him to be safe.

Skip to 8 pm. No word from Dave. I didn't expect him to be home by 8, but I did expect him to be back in the range of cell service by 8. I was worried, but at the same time figured they were just having too much fun or had stopped to eat or whatever. I finally got a call from him at 8:30, and learned that my worries were justified.

Skip back to approx 4pm. Dave and his friend Dallas are having a great time playing on the snowmobiles. It was time to head back, so they were looking for a place to turn around. Dallas was following Dave-- or so he thought. Dallas found a place to turn around, and got stuck. Dave had no idea. he just kept going thinking Dallas was behind him. Dave then found a place to turn around, and also got stuck. They were each all alone, and it was getting dark. They each started heading toward a little shack they had passed earlier. It got dark and cold. They got scared.

Dave's dad and the people he was with got worried. They went to the shack and found Dallas there. He had made it there after hours of hiking thru the snow, in the dark. He had feared for his life, wondering if he'd be found, and even left a note to his wife on his cell phone, thinking it would be found along with his frozen body. They asked where Dave was. Dallas didn't know. He didn't know Dave hadn't made it back.

They called the Search and Rescue team , who was eventually able to find Dave only because he had the flash on his cell phone shining. Otherwise, he doesn't think he would have been found. He was preparing for the possibility of spending the night in the snow sub-zero temperatures. his fingers and toes were purple, hardly kept warm by his snow gear. Thank goodness nothing had to be amputated!!

I'm still very emotional about the whole thing, mostly because I haven't talked to Dave since 10pm, since there is no service where they are. He had to drive almost an hour just to call to let me know he was okay. And I'm obviously dying to see him!

I'm not going to lie-- as it approaches sundown, I'm getting nervous all over again. But I'm sure he's fine. Right?

I'm so glad tragedy was averted, but I'm also grateful I was able to tell Dave that morning just how much I loved him. I joked with Dallas's wife that Dallas loved her more than Dave loved me because she got a love letter! Then I said, or maybe Dave loves me more because he never lost the will to live ;)

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Possible Multiple Personalities

I think I have multiple personalties. Just two really. Maybe.

• My two favorite icons: Audrey Hepburn and Beyonce
• My favorite brands: Chanel, Coach, Tory Burch, and Volcom
• My favorite shoes: Platform heels (Jessica Simpson and Steve Madden) and flip flops or tennies (DC, Volcom, Vans...)
• My favorite foods: Creme Brulee, Tirimisu, and pizza
• My favorite shows: Fashion Police, Law and Order SVU and football
• My favorite movies: Breakfast at Tiffany's, The Holiday and The Rock
• My favorite books: The Scarlet Pimpernel, Pride and Prejudice, and The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (series)
• Favorite songs: Heartbreak Warfare (John Mayer) and Diva (Beyonce)
• Favorite outfits: heels with a pencil skirt or jeans with a t-shirt and hoodie
• Favorite vacation places: Maui, Bahamas, and Disneyland

Obsessed

I'm so obsessed with Audrey Hepburn!

Roman Holiday

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Charade

Wait Until Dark...

I've always loved her, but this book is what made me obsessed:

She was glamorous, fabulous, kind, and humble.

She was truly shocked by her success and fame.

Read it. Love it. Become obsessed.

You can find the book on sale here.

BaaaaaaaHumbug!

Not in regards to Christmas, just winter in general!

Currently it is -2 degrees,

but the weather channel says it feels like -12!!

I think they meant to say

it feels like HELL!!

Hell is none of that fire and brimstone garbage.

Hell is cold.

And I am in it.

Meanwhile, my hubby is in Vegas.

He's there working, but still!

I would eat my left ear for a tropical vacation!

Or sell a kidney,

or whatever would get me on a beach in the sun.

This time last year,

we were on a cruise to the Mexican Riviera:

What I would give to be there now...